After the Myelogram Hell week, the surgeon said that he is confident that lumbar laminectomy/discectomy surgery is all that is required. He sees no indication for fusion. So, that was the upside of Hell week. I am having some massive anxiety over the thought of surgery. However, I do believe that this is the right decision at this time for me. My life has deteriorated over the last year into something I do not recognize nor enjoy at all. I am just hanging on till I wake up Monday after the surgery is over!
I was highly irritated, OK, made as hell, last week at the surgeon’s office, but the surgeon himself is wonderful. He called me Monday and talked to me on the phone for over 1/2 hour. He answered every question I had and did not rush me in the least. Then I was given the neuro anesthesiologist’s email address. I emailed him some questions, and he called me Tues evening and talked to me for almost an hour! We have emailed back and forth about a dozen times in addition to that. Oh, and gave me his cell phone number!! I actually work in the healthcare business and know that this is NOT standard operating procedures for physicians! I am totally impressed with them and feel completely confident in their abilities. I just seem to have this terror about something I can’t quite put my finger on. It has to do with the time up till I’m put under rather than the actual surgery itself.
I’ve started my own prep work. I’m using David Lanz’s Christophori’s Dream CD and visualization. I can have my iPod in my pre and post op suite, so I hope I can get myself in a meditative state (or at a minimum a notch or two calmer) Monday morning before being given the anesthesiology.
I have my eye on the prize: dancing again! I’m thinking Samba lessons….
Hi there hope your starting to get back to a bit more normality. I know only too well what you are going through and have been through. I had my 13th birthday in hospital 3 days after having a partial laminectomy, it was agony given that was 23 years ago and i still cannot forget it completely and believe me i never will. I dont really know what happened i was doing gymnastics 4 days a week quite competitively and think i was just pushed too far. I am fine now but not anywhere near how fit i was prior to the injury. i.ve had a couple of problems over the years however the chiropracta puts me right eventually. Just have to be careful last time my back went was pulling the handbrake on my car leaning over with both hands to yank it up as on a hill, next day disaster crawling on my hands and knees. So all the very best with your recovery it does take time so try and be patient easier said than done i know it is very frustrating and a long road but you,ll get there. Take care ok Jane x